From Skinny to Fit II

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My friend, a fitness manager, once said that most people have a little screw loose that drives them to pursue a career in fitness. As strange as that sounds, he’s right.

In my case I had depression and anorexia or orthorexia in high school, but labels are irrelevant. Essentially, I played two sports with just enough food to energetically feign a smile and conceal my intern battles.

Read more of my story here, or read my first STF post here.

I posted this photo on Instagram (body.culture) and got an overwhelmingly positive response, which I appreciate so much. As the caption says, “I’m wearing floral skirts differently nowadays. I’ve progressed from malnourishing my body to fueling it, from physical weakness to strength and from discomfort to confidence.”

When I see the girl that I used to be, I feel sad for her. I wish I could help her and tell her that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. She seems sad, alone and lost. However, the girl on the right drastically contrasts her qualities. That girl loves herself fully.

If you’d like to talk, please email me at bodyculture.us@gmail.com

If you’d like to follow my journey follow me on Instagram (@body.culture)

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Sesame Oil Massage

One of my favorite ways to de-stress comes from ayruveda. I use sesame oil for abhyanga, the daily self-massage. It is rich in linoleic acid, and has anti-bacterial, anti-inflammatory and antioxidant properties ॐ

You can also use sesame oil for oil pulling or scalp treatments.

For more information about Ayruveda here and here.

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Fall Goal: Back to my former self

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My abs circa 2012. Comparing myself to other fitspo images creates unrealistic, unattainable goals. So what better way to get back at it than to look at a place I know I have been before, and know that I can get to again?

As you can read in my last post, I hope to be a yoga instructor one day. This image exemplifies the core strength and abdomen definition I had when I diligently practiced.

What are your goals for the new season?

200 Hour Yoga Application

I’ve decided to become a yoga instructor.

Lately I’ve been feeling overwhelmed by the plethora of career options the real world has to offer. However, as often as I change my mind or rationalize each possibility, I keep going back to yoga. I am so intensely passionate about it. And not the passion that I feel about working out, cooking or a lover. Yoga is very personal to me.

I know, I know. I sound like a dorky hippie. I can’t help it.

Anyway. I have always dreamed of getting my 200-hour yoga certification at Kripalu Center of Yoga & Health. If Kripalu was a girl, she would be my woman crush Wednesday every Wednesday.

My biggest apprehension about getting my certification was that I wasn’t skilled enough. I cannot do a handstand, I struggle with crow some days and I still use the wall as a crutch for my headstands when my core strength isn’t up to par. However, after speaking to a sweet, soft-spoken woman from Kripalu’s office, all of my concerns were quelled. Here’s one question and my answer from the application. Thoughts?

  1. Why do you want to be certified as a yoga teacher at this time in your life?

Yoga is a huge part of me. Although I’ve dreamed of teaching yoga every day of this six year journey, there was always something holding me back from realizing this goal: my ego. When I first attended yoga classes I silently competed with others in the corporate gym’s fluorescent lit group exercise room. I mindlessly sped through each asana and did anything to gain the yoga instructor’s verbal praise.

These actions were in vain.

When my objective shifted from being in an asana’s deepest expression to listening to my body and being mindful of my movements, the real journey began. Truly letting go, finding peace, grace and understanding on the mat helped me appreciate my body, learn more about myself and discover my genuine passion for yoga.

After six years of transformation and redefining what yoga means to me, I am ready to help others start their own journey of mindfulness, compassion and understanding.