From Skinny to Fit II


My friend, a fitness manager, once said that most people have a little screw loose that drives them to pursue a career in fitness. As strange as that sounds, he’s right.

In my case I had depression and anorexia or orthorexia in high school, but labels are irrelevant. Essentially, I played two sports with just enough food to energetically feign a smile and conceal my intern battles.

Read more of my story here, or read my first STF post here.

I posted this photo on Instagram (body.culture) and got an overwhelmingly positive response, which I appreciate so much. As the caption says, “I’m wearing floral skirts differently nowadays. I’ve progressed from malnourishing my body to fueling it, from physical weakness to strength and from discomfort to confidence.”

When I see the girl that I used to be, I feel sad for her. I wish I could help her and tell her that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. She seems sad, alone and lost. However, the girl on the right drastically contrasts her qualities. That girl loves herself fully.

If you’d like to talk, please email me at

If you’d like to follow my journey follow me on Instagram (@body.culture)


Sesame Oil Massage

One of my favorite ways to de-stress comes from ayruveda. I use sesame oil for abhyanga, the daily self-massage. It is rich in linoleic acid, and has anti-bacterial, anti-inflammatory and antioxidant properties ॐ

You can also use sesame oil for oil pulling or scalp treatments.

For more information about Ayruveda here and here.


Late Night Cardio

Literally just do it. I’ve had a rough couple of days and almost didn’t workout today, but I just want to let you readers know: that work out is worth it.

Getting to the gym is the hardest part but once you’re there, you can be creative and have fun with your workouts! The intimidating gym jungle is like a child’s jungle gym. Just play and discover what you do and don’t like!

Heck. Even be “lazy” like I was tonight and go when you know Sex and the City or Big Bang Theory is on so you can mindlessly elliptical along and laugh through the episode. It’s better than nothing! Boost that confidence, get into a consistent routine and all of your goals and priorities will fall into place.


200 Hour Yoga Application

I’ve decided to become a yoga instructor.

Lately I’ve been feeling overwhelmed by the plethora of career options the real world has to offer. However, as often as I change my mind or rationalize each possibility, I keep going back to yoga. I am so intensely passionate about it. And not the passion that I feel about working out, cooking or a lover. Yoga is very personal to me.

I know, I know. I sound like a dorky hippie. I can’t help it.

Anyway. I have always dreamed of getting my 200-hour yoga certification at Kripalu Center of Yoga & Health. If Kripalu was a girl, she would be my woman crush Wednesday every Wednesday.

My biggest apprehension about getting my certification was that I wasn’t skilled enough. I cannot do a handstand, I struggle with crow some days and I still use the wall as a crutch for my headstands when my core strength isn’t up to par. However, after speaking to a sweet, soft-spoken woman from Kripalu’s office, all of my concerns were quelled. Here’s one question and my answer from the application. Thoughts?

  1. Why do you want to be certified as a yoga teacher at this time in your life?

Yoga is a huge part of me. Although I’ve dreamed of teaching yoga every day of this six year journey, there was always something holding me back from realizing this goal: my ego. When I first attended yoga classes I silently competed with others in the corporate gym’s fluorescent lit group exercise room. I mindlessly sped through each asana and did anything to gain the yoga instructor’s verbal praise.

These actions were in vain.

When my objective shifted from being in an asana’s deepest expression to listening to my body and being mindful of my movements, the real journey began. Truly letting go, finding peace, grace and understanding on the mat helped me appreciate my body, learn more about myself and discover my genuine passion for yoga.

After six years of transformation and redefining what yoga means to me, I am ready to help others start their own journey of mindfulness, compassion and understanding.

Back to Basics Workout


Although my diet has been on point, I hadn’t been to the gym in days which is so unlike me! Anyway, I decided to do some basic, effective exercises based on functional, everyday movements: walking, stepping, jumping and pushing.  Turned out to be the perfect balance between fun and challenging. Definitely encouraged me to go back to the gym tomorrow!

Tip: pack your gym bag the night before and throw it by your front door or car trunk to insure you’ll go to the gym. No excuses!

Whole 30: Day 2 – Fish Cabbage Cups

Day two done with ease! Did yoga first thing in the morning, and completed day 2 of insanity. SO SORE.



huge fruit salad



Balsamic grilled chicken, red bell pepper, kale and my staple mustard vinaigrette!



ate most of the grapes before I took this… whoops




Sea Trout Cabbage Cups – insanely delicious!

Sea Trout Cabbage Cups

I was on the hunt for a fish dinner. I went to my usual fish market, saw my usual fish guy and got an unusual fish (for me). I pointed to the vibrant, saturated salmon-looking flesh and to my surprise, it was sea trout! When cooked, it was milder and firmer than salmon. Definitely expecting to try new things during these next thirty days, and this was just the start!


6 oz filet fish
1 TBS melted coconut oil, divided
chili powder
2 bell peppers, chopped
1/2 cup cabbage, shredded
1 TBS coconut aminos
4 whole cabbage leaves
orange wedges


Whisk together 1 tsp oil, cumin, paprika and chili powder. Brush onto fish and place on a hot grill. Cooking time will vary depending on the kind of fish, size of the fish and temperature of your grilling surface.

Meanwhile, sautee the bell peppers and cabbage in the remaining melted coconut oil and coconut aminos. Stir frequently and remove when cabbage has shrunk and peppers are tender.

Arrange cabbage leaves or “cups” on your plate. Spoon vegetable mixture and fish into each cup, top with juice from your orange wedges, wrap and enjoy!


Overheard in the Dairy Aisle

The father picked up a handful of yogurts and turned to his young daughter. “See sweetie? Sugars are bad for you. This has too much sugar, this has a little less.” The little girl actively scrounged the aisle for a yogurt with as little sugar as possible, receiving verbal praise for every good find.

I wholeheartedly believe that eating nutritiously stems from educating at a young age. This event seemed like an integral teaching lesson until the father directed that his child eat less sugar “to stay skinny forever. Being skinny is very important as you get older.”

That urked me.

From my own experience I know that my superiors’ superficiality, and judgement of me based on a scale or types of food that I ate, unhealthily tied my self worth to my diet. This ultimately damaged my relationship with food and largely contributed to my anorexia in High School.

Children are so impressionable. They look up to the older, cool cousin or their smart, wise guardian and hang onto their every word absorbing the information intently. I think telling children to eat less sugar for aesthetic reasons like staying thin or pretty, rather than for nutritional reasons, like disease prevention, could damage a child’s relationship with food.

Just thoughts from my own experience.